Boredom

You ever been bored? I have. I used to be bored often. I was always saying “There’s nothing to watch on TV”, “There’s no good games on tonight”, or “There’s nothing on Netflix”.

I’m bored less often now. I have things to do. I’m reading Seneca’s On Tranquility. He says it doesn’t matter the ranking you may have in society. It doesn’t matter how much money you have. At the end of the day you have to be able to be alone with yourself. That’s tranquility. How do I reach that point?

At this point in my life I can do this by working on things that will eventually help me reach my ‘long term goals’. That’s an abstract term we all use. “What are your long term goals?”, “What’re your short term goals?”. Well, isn’t that relative to the person.

Right now, my 5 year goal is my long term goal. A few years ago, a 30 year goal was my long term long. I continually ask myself why I can’t achieve something in 6 months. I got the idea from Tools of Titans.

It’s worth asking. It doesn’t mean I’m going to accomplish my goal in 6 months but it may help me think differently. It may help me think of ways to reach my goals quicker.

The mind is always working. If there is anything I learned from reading books like Think and Grow Rich, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, or Seneca’s On Tranquility. The mind has to be doing something. Even if you’re just sitting there watching celebrity news or a sports ‘analyst’. The mind is taking it all in. Your mind is going to fill itself with whatever you feed it.

I don’t think I was eating healthy up until a few years ago. Now that I eat healthier, I think about my mind. What am I feeding my mind?

It used to always be sports. All the time. I could tell you the scoring leader in the NBA the past 3 seasons. Yet, I couldn’t identify the type of business I wanted to start or what my goals were. I was just letting my life flow with the currents. Not taking control of my own ship.

That’s changing. I can tell it’s changing. I’m taking control of my life. I don’t read poetry often but I read Invictus. It’s the reason my online store is called Invictus Beard. I was introduced to the poem in Think and Grow Rich.

My mind is being filled with more valuable information. I’m taking a course on how to start an online business. How do get things done. If I ever feel stuck I can ask a question or I can watch a video on how to do it. I listen to Podcasts. I read books. I’m trying to feed my mind a healthy diet of valuable information.

I stopped watching the news. I avoid the popular page on Instagram. I barely watch any sports.

I think all of these things are just information that I used to digest to keep me away from what was most important to me. I would sit and watch news. Listen to everything bad that’s happening in the world. It may be good to be knowledgable on the current events of the world but I can always get that information from my friends. In fact, they are going to give me a better summary than the news because they actually think about it in a way that is going to affect them.

The other day I was in the car and my AUX cable broke. Naturally, I put on the radio. The major news of the day was that The Weeknd put out a “diss track” and it may be intended towards Justin Bieber. I turned to Eliz and said “Now I have to read 3 books to get that worthless piece of information out of my head”. Who cares? Why do I care what The Weeknd and Justin Bieber are up to? How are they helping my life? As a society we concentrate our efforts on the wrong things. We let our minds intake garbage. We let our bodies intake garbage. As soon as we can accept that, we can change it.

I’m not perfect and I’m not suggesting I’m even close to it. I’m saying I am getting better. It takes practice. Slowly I’m getting to a place where I’m feeding my active mind the right types of information.

I mentioned earlier that our minds are always active. That’s why we can grow bored. We sit and look for something to do. We think Netflix is actually helping this out. I used to think so. I’m barely ever bored now. All of this entertainment at my fingertips. All the time. I thought it was great but on the contrary it’s a dangerous thing.

I’m 25. I know about a lot of shows on Netflix. Lot’s of great shows on Netflix. Lot’s of great movies. I could sit there and watch something different every day. I would never be bored, but I think that may be the worst way to live.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about how I can help the world. I’ve always said I’m an environmentalist. The world is going in the wrong direction. Someone needs to change the tide. The year before winning the MVP of the NBA, Derrick Rose asked “Why not me?”. I ask this question to myself often. Why can’t I be the person that influences change? Right now, I’m simply focusing on myself. Trying to make myself better suited to take on bigger problems. Trying to see how I can help. What I can do. Before I make moves into that realm of the world I want to accomplish financial freedom. It’s step one. That’s why I’m working hard at bazinga!. That’s why I’m working hard on my own business. Ultimately, however, I want to accomplish something major. I look at Elon Musk and think why not me? I look at Leonardo DiCaprio’s work for climate change and think Why not me? I look at Al Gore and think why not me? In the past, you could’ve had an argument and said this was due to my ego. You probably would’ve been right. Now? I think it’s different. I don’t think I want to do it for me. I want to do it for the planet. I want to do it for my future kids. My nephew.

After all this talking about how much I don’t watch Netflix, there is one show on Netflix that I absolutely love. It may be my favourite show. Chef’s Table. Yesterday, I opened Netflix for the first time in a while and saw they released a new season. I watched the episode of Jeong Kwane, a Monk that cooks in a Korean Temple. I suggest everyone watch this episode. It was incredible to watch how preparing the food and cooking was a form of meditation for her. I was envious. I want to be able to live those monks. One with nature. One with my own mind. Truly free.

I feel as if I’m working towards something bigger than myself. It’s all going to come in due time. I just feel better about myself knowing that I am actually doing something. Actually working on it. Not just waiting around for something to change. Making changes within myself to ensure things around me change. First, I need to be able to free myself financially. Then I can concentrate on those bigger tasks.

 

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Author: Mehmet Akcagliyan

I am the Master of my Fate. I am the Captain of my Soul.

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